The last thing I want to do is stop. I don’t want to give up. The last place I want to go is the end of the line. The last thing I want to hear is the sound cut off. The last thing I want to see is the fading…

For want of intimacy — I don’t know how to proceed with my life. I don’t want to open my computer or face the cries of starvation from Osborn, knowing I can’t help him, anymore. This is murderous to me, not being able to help and not really knowing if he is telling the truth…

In science I discovered God. In religion I lost him. I used to say that I found God through science, but now I can say I lost God through religion. I have a theology, but it does not turn a loving God into the genocidal God of the bible. Consider: “So…

On this day of hope, this day of remembrance I write this on a page in a spiral bound notebook. The spiral binding seems a fitting reminder of the frailness of the binding of deceit in the life of a person. So, I don’t care if this pen bleeds through the page of this pad, on this lonely day…

The discontinuity of continuity — Our Physical Life is not Continuous. Over the years that person died and was replaced, cell by cell, until the original individual no longer existed. This has happened several times during what I perceive as my lifetime. So, if this is true, then how is it that I have continuity…

The validity of a belief structure is not pertinent to its power. — What does belief and reality have to do with each other? How does our belief system color the way we perceive reality? Are miracles real or do we believe in miracles because somethings happen that seem miraculous? Belief is powerful. It can make much happen in your life, and whatever…

Evolution’s Soup I have a question. Back a couple hundred years ago, or maybe less, three experiments were done to prove something very important to biology. Redi’s Experiment (1668), Spallanzini’s experiment (1769), and Pasteur’s experiment (1861). About a month or so ago, I read Stephen Hawkins’ statement that the big bang began as a…

Places to look — My History I have been in a strange relationship with God, Faith, and Religion since birth. Several things tested me and confused me about the god I believed in and the god in the bible, and the science of his creation. As an infant, I was baptized in the Catholic Church. I…

It is not there — I went for a walk, this morning, into the wooded area near the community housing campus, where I live. While shuffling through the leaves covering the path, my pace slowed, and I sunk into a state of relaxed contemplation. Quiet, except for the rustle of leaves, my breath a soft…